Saturday, April 10, 2010

Tough Woman's Creed -- the lie and the truth

This is what tough women say:

TRUST no one, especially not men.  If it needs to be done, I can do it myself or find someone to do it for me.  If I have to steal it, sleep for it, or find some other way to do it --I'll do it.  I'll do anything but depend on someone else to do it for me.  I will protect my children like a mother tiger.  No one will harm them or do to them what was done to me.  I love God because He is my ally in the battle.  He's got my back, and  He won't let me down.

(This is what tough women really feel):

I have been hurt and broken so much I don't dare open up my real feelings to another person, but only God knows how much I want to be loved.  I want my daddy back.  I want real love, but all that's offered is a cheap substitute.  Still, I will take it.  I'll do anything for love -- I would steal for it, sleep for it, give up my own self-respect for it.  I would sacrifice my children for it.  I would do whatever it takes to fill this emptiness.

I believe in fantasies.  I believe lies.  But I can't accept the Truth that saves me.